Saturday, June 8, 2013

Life Interrupted

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It seems like, just when life is on a smooth track and you can get so much done, it suddenly gets interrupted by things beyond your control. At least, that's how I feel lately.

The full heat of the Arizona summer is upon us, so working outdoors is out of question. Even working inside can be hard as the room we're currently hitting has no heat or cooling. Ugh. So work on our house has slowed to a crawl. At least it's still easing forward, even if very slowly.

I've been too distracted to write lately. Through the first week of June, I haven't had much success sitting down to edit either. Even as I'm preparing for the release of my third book, I can't seem to maintain my momentum. I'm spending a lot of time in prayer and contemplation instead, as well as seeking the stillness of mind that comes with crocheting (working on a couple of large projects). Sometimes I escape into old TV show re-runs on Netflix, something I can do while crocheting.

With many of life's difficulties, I find writing to be a good escape, or therapy to work through the emotional struggles that come with so many situations. But this time, one of my aunts lies dying in hospice from metastatic cancer. I've waited to receive the call any moment of each day for the last several days to tell me that she's gone. Still I wait, and she continues to slip away in painful fashion.

None of this is unexpected, but that doesn't make the reality any less difficult in some ways. I pray for the Lord to show mercy and take her quickly to end the suffering. I pray for her children and grandchildren to be ready in their hearts for her inevitable death. Some of them are believers, some aren't. I pray for my grandmother as she watches one of her children die. She's already lost two children, as well as a grandchild. Now she's losing a third. It's taken a toll.

In the last few days, I've also dealt with the loss of a beloved pet. Salt in an already raw wound of sorrow.

Life gets interrupted. By life. It really is that simple. I take comfort in knowing none of it catches God by surprise, even on the occasions it totally blindsides us. He saw it all coming. He knew the pain I and others would feel. He prepared our hearts to reach this moment in time. I wrap myself in the knowledge that He promises comfort to those who mourn (Matt. 5:4), so there's no shame in grieving the losses that come with life in a fallen, sinful world.

And as always, life will go on. Time doesn't stop under the weight of loss. It marches step-by-step ever forward. And thus it will do until God brings an end to this world and all its sufferings. Times like now, I crave that time. No more illness. No more death. No more sorrow.
And He shall wipe away every tear from their eyes, and there shall no longer be any death; here shall no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away. - Rev. 21:4
But that time is not here yet. So I keep moving forward with life, walking the path God has laid before me (or at least trying to), performing the tasks He has for me, giving thanks for His loving, faithful presence through all of life's difficulties.

Lord, help me hold to the narrow way and perform the tasks You've assigned to me. Help me hold true to You, no matter what. Amen.


  1. Oh, Dawn. So much sorrow. You're in my thoughts and prayers as you go through this season. Hold tight to God's promises.

  2. Dawn,
    I understand completely. It seems the further we progress through life as we age, the more life throws at us. I sometimes wonder if it is a test of faith. Good luck to you as you make your way through the troubles that weigh you down. Focus on the good things the best you can.

  3. Dawn, Thank you for sharing even when it's frustrating and painful. And thank you for sharing what the Lord has shown you through the midst of it. Praying for you!

  4. Thanks, ladies. I know many have been where I am at this moment. Many know the weight of such sorrow. And I covet your prayers for my family through this time, especially for my grandmother and my aunt's children and grandchildren.

  5. What a lovely blog and so heart warming. I too have been going through the valley. But as you do-we must stand strong in the Lord and know that better days will come. Often for me to find time to write, means getting up early before the rest of the world and the problems awake. It's me and God and my WIP. Blessings Dawn.

  6. I sure understand, Dawn. Life marches on, but difficulties are ever with us. I once posted, I'm too busy to skip my quiet time with God. That's still the truth. We need it every day. Prayers for all the troubles that are bombarding you at this time.

  7. Thanks for your prayers and support. It's deeply appreciated. My aunt passed away today, so the vigil is over. But her children need prayer, as do her remaining brothers and sisters, and her mother. My grandmother is taking it hard.